Friday, May 02, 2008

Home?

I'm laying here in a bed that isn't mine, with covers that just don't feel right. The walls aren't stark white and there isn't another girl lying five feet away. I'm home, but I'm not home at all. I love Salt Lake, but Logan is my home now. I belong up at Utah State and I am having a really hard time with moving away from Merrill. Once Monday comes around, reality might begin to set in that I'm home for four months before returning to my beloved Cache Valley, but I doubt it.

I am done with my first year of college. One year. College. Me. Done. I don't know what happened to it, because it went by way too fast for me. It feels like yesterday that I was driving through Sardine Canyon to move in, yet already I've packed up, turned in my keys and driven back though the opposite way. There is now way I'm going escape the withdrawals--late night conversations with Rachelle, playing games into all hours of the night, peering out the blinds praying there isn't more snow on the ground, chastity couches, everything! Oddly I feel like my life has changed more moving back to Salt Lake than it did when I went up to school in the first place.

For the first time in my life I am actually excited for August to come fast. If I could I would move back up there tomorrow. School can't come soon enough, yet it is going to come and go faster than I want. Only 112 days left!

4 comments:

JACK's house said...

oh x, you are so young. Don't wish your life away. Enjoy every day--and live for every moment. We love you very much!

Jami said...

i can understand that. logan is my home now. think ive had 3 years and its gone super fast. just wait tell you can say you only have one year left of school- its craziness.

Caroline said...

I'm sure it's weird & your mom's house is a lot different than the last time you lived there and so are you. Good luck with the adjustment, we'll see you in a few months!

Lane & Carolyn Howell said...

Hi lady X, Here's to "homecomings". Thanks for keeping us updated. We hope to call you later today (Sunday), looking forward to seeing you next week. xoxo